lifeInverted

so i just wrote a few hundred words about depression (actually explained lifeInverted a bit).. beautiful verse that was a waste of twenty minutes... then i decided that publishing it out would allow it to exist.. that whole tagline: reality is 99%... blah blah blah.. so ignore what you feel, think what you want to feel and bam.. you feel it..
more like baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaam (it takes a while)
so i want to go out drinking.. it is thursday...
better than monday and tuesday where i said the same thing... god knows it's the four hrs of law and order that are keeping me from doing it..
arg...
um so..
happy thoughts
happy thoughts..
this weekend is to Upstate to camp with skidz, a guy i formerly hated (we lived together) and last time i saw him i was punched in my precious gonads twice, his girlfriend and my roommate.. (btw, that guy is actually one of my best friends)... should be fun, i love camping love outside love drinking love fire... i dotn konw why the thought of it isn't making me quiver with excitment yet. there is something wrong deep.. alas.. anyway back to happy thoughs
then just four little days of work and brit is flying in... i cannot wait... i want to spend the longest weekend of my life with her.. something about her makes me feel uncomfortably comfortable and im assuming the only time we won't be talking is during the moments laughing at stupid people around us...
god i can't wait... still maybe it's the temporal expanse before then, but it hasnt brightened my disposition yet..
(haha, this comedian just said ". . . and then you'd have a sheep full of dead ducks . . .")
anyway... life will rawk
days will roll
and ill have luck
after this lull